My Life....

Thought that I would blog for a min. Things are going really good..only 12 more days of school, I am so excited to have fun this summer with Braxton and Kenlee. They are growing up so fast. I have them both in Baseball, we have a game every night of the week. It is so much fun to watch them play and I am so proud of them. They make me laugh and smile every single day! Since I have moved I have come to appreciate things a lot more. For instance, my FREAKEN washer broke, so I have been taking my laundry to my moms..I THANK GOD that I have her! she really is my life saver!!! I got a new one yesterday, thank goodness. But, I just now am thankful for all that I have and my love is so much stronger for all the people in my life...Not that I wasn't appreciative of things and people before, I just think that i was so ANGRY all the time I didn't pay much attention to all the little things. I have such a wonderful and amazing family..and the best friends that a girl could ask for..I love ALL of my co-workers and my job..and I have the cutest dang kids in the whole world!!! Sometimes you just need to slow down and take a look around...Life is so much better that way.

Just wanted to say I LOVE My life....I am at such a good place right now!!! WOOT-WOOT!!

Braxton...

I have not blogged for a bit...So, thought I would write about a cute little thing that happened last night. Since we moved into our new place, the church and the missionaries have been at my door almost every day! I gota say they are very persistent!!! So, I decided that it could not hurt anything to let the missionaries in to give Braxton and Kenlee lessons. They have now been coming twice a week and are very cute with them. Braxton looks forward to their visits...Not sure that it is the fact that they are guys and he likes being around guys..or, if he is actually into the lesson..But, last night it was very windy and Braxton woke up scared, he woke me up telling me that someone was breaking into our house...I comforted him and told him that it was just the wind..as I was drifting back to sleep, I heard him saying the cutest prayer that I have ever heard..Blessing us to be safe..he went on and on..It brought tears to my eyes. I am so thankful for both of them!! And so thankful that he has such a huge heart! I do believe that everything happens for a reason.

Bring it....

Awww...The sun is shining and it makes me so happy!! I have been walking the trail with my mom everyday. It has been so nice. School is almost out..Only 28 more days and then we are off all summer long! This year has gone by so fast. I have met some wonderful friends and I am so excited for what lies ahead....bring it on...bring it on..bring it on.....

What am I thinking...

Well, I decided to be a BIG girl and get a second job... so, that I will have extra cash in my pocket...TODAY is my first day of training for that second job. I woke up at 6am and work at my first job until 2:30pm and then have to head strait to my other job after until 8pm...UGH...I am trying very hard to stay positive!! It is just going to be a long day for me! I can do it though..I know that in the long run it will all be worth it! Just when I get home I will need some wine..and a bubble bath...Wish it would be there ready for me when I got home! Ha..Ha..wishful thinking....

Walls

"Sometimes we put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down..."

Why do I do what I do?

SO...It has been almost 9 months since Brock and I have been divorced. Well, since he moved out of the house. Our divorce was pretty quick..Took about one week and we were all done with the lawyer. Anyway, my point is..I have been waiting for 9 months for the divorce papers that were signed by the Judge. Well, yesterday I finally called Brocks lawyer. They told me that they are signed and have been for a while... I just have to pick them up. YAY!!!

I seem to not really want to date for some reason? or I am just too picky..I have friends that ask me out..and people that want to hook me up with their friends..and I tend to just always say no! or, I find a reason not to date them..Why is that? am I afraid of getting hurt? Am I better of just being single forever? Am I just not ready to date? .....

I don't understand myself...A lot of the reason that I got divorced is because I was always alone...and I hate being alone! But, now I do not have to be alone if I don't want to be.. and I choose to be....

I am happy with my life and the way that things are..sometimes it would just be nice to have an Adult to hang out with ..and have fun with....