Sad day...

It is a sad day for me today! I now have a for sell sign in my front yard and I hate it so much. Now Reality has set in. I right now live in my DREAM HOME! I have the best friends and neighbors that any girl could ever ask for. It is so sad for me to think that i have to move and disrupt my children's security of what we have known as home. I am scared to think about moving..and that I am now going to have to suck up my pride and maybe live in an apartment. If it was just me I would be okay. But, I am so sad for Braxton and Kenlee. It breaks my heart that my choice in getting divorced and making myself happy has brought so many changes into their lives. I hope and pray that it all works out for the best.

Field trip with my LITTLE MAN..

Yesterday I went on Braxtons field trip Snow shoeing at the Environmental Center. We had the best time together! We got out snow shoes on and started off on the trail..We hiked all the way up the mountain. We was laughing..and smiling..We got back to the lodge and had a fabulous lunch, made smores at the fire..He sat on my lap and kept hugging me! I hung out with some fun moms..Me and my friend from KindG were there together and remembering how when we were young we use to stay up there and sleep over with our class. The smell brought back so many memories..I am so happy and thankful that I get to share those special times with Braxton. We got home and he said thanks mom! You are such a good mom..and I had so much fun with you today. Awww..melted my heart!!

"The Secret"
So, these past few months have been a little bit CRAZY! My life has taken a whole different direction, and I have been a little negative these past few days..Having to sell my house due to the divorce..Having to find a new place to live has been making me stressed and sad for my children..Bills..X lost his job and can not pay childsupport..Blah..Blah..Blah..Anyway, I have the BEST ROOMATE in the world!! He told me that he has a show for me to watch called "THE SECRET" So, last night I sat down and watched it. He told me that I needed to watch it with an open mind and to take everything in and to put aside my stubborn ways. (lol) Well, I did. I loved it! It made me in such a better mood. It made me realize (not that I did not already know) just had forgotten that your life is what you make of it. If you wake up in the morning and start your day with a positive attitude and go over in your head all that you are grateful for that you have in your life..if you say nice positive things throughout your day, smile and have good energy then good things will happen. It also said that if you want something bad enough all you have to do is think it, post it up on your wall and think about it everyday, picture yourself with it, having it..and eventually it will be yours. I am not one to be materialistic. I just want to be happy, have good people around me and raise my kids in the best way that I can so, that they as well will have good energy and a wonderful childhood. So, as for this morning I am a whole new me!! Thanks to my awesome roommate that has turned out to be a wonderful friend!

I believe in PINK
I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner
I believe in KISSING, KISSING A LOT
I believe in being STRONG when everything seems to be going wrong
I believe that HAPPY GIRLS are the prettiest girls
I believe that tomorrow is another day
and I believe in MIRACLES.
Aubrey Hepburn

My favorite thing while driving to work..

Driving to work and as I look over I see the cute little old man that is the crossing guard by my house, he is there every single morning with a smile on his face..waving at every single car that drives by. I thought to myself he is the cutest ever! It takes a really neat person to stand on the corner rain or snow..smile at everyone and wave, and make sure that all of our children are safe walking to school each and every day. I love that cute little crossing guard. He makes my day brighter everytime I see him and smile and wave!

Callie Ann.

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I love her and her beauty, brains, and great computer skills.

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I like where I am...

Driving to work today..blasting my music as I usually do..I thought to myself,I really like where I am right now in my life! I have no idea where I am headed and I just live my life day to day..But, I am happy for the fist time in a really really long time. I can finally breath. I don't feel anxiety. I wake up to my kid's with a smile on my face each and every morning...Love where I am today!

Night time at our house..

Night time at our house is quit the chore...Kenlee being 6 years old is very into routine and has a O.C.D. I on the other hand very opposite of that. I try to stay on a schedule for them and be a good mom. But, I tend to like to fly by the seat of my pants and just go with the flow..Braxton who is 9, now with Brock being moved out Braxton is the man of the house and thinks that he is my BOSS! They are the cutest and I love them with all of my heart! So..as our nightly routine starts lastnight..It is 8pm and hate to admit that they are both sleeping in my room because they are scared at night. As 1 hour goes by of me trying to be patient and nice..and telling them to go to sleep. I am now at the point that I am angry and tired! I start yelling and tell them... " GO sleep in your own rooms! " ( in which they should be doing anyway) Braxton says to me..Mom, why do you hate me? Why do you not want me to sleep in here and snuggle with you? I thought to myself..Why would he ever think that I hate him? Broke my heart!!! I then started to cry and told them both that I will be calm and keep my cool. Braxton said yes, I think that you need to learn to control your anger like I do! Ha..I huged them both and told them how much that I love them! Made me stop and think what it does to them when you lose my patience...I never ever want them to feel that way again!

So...Here I go...

I have been reading blogs at my desk at work when all of my work is done of coarse! My little sister Callie ( that should be the big sister) Well, she inspired me to start a blog. I am 32 years old and currently divorced. I have two children and my life and world is always CRAZY!! All of you that know me know that. It is never boring if you hang out at my house. Anyway, I thought that it would be alot of fun to write about my crazy life...and all the fun things that happen with me and my cute kids!