Night time at our house..

Night time at our house is quit the chore...Kenlee being 6 years old is very into routine and has a O.C.D. I on the other hand very opposite of that. I try to stay on a schedule for them and be a good mom. But, I tend to like to fly by the seat of my pants and just go with the flow..Braxton who is 9, now with Brock being moved out Braxton is the man of the house and thinks that he is my BOSS! They are the cutest and I love them with all of my heart! So..as our nightly routine starts lastnight..It is 8pm and hate to admit that they are both sleeping in my room because they are scared at night. As 1 hour goes by of me trying to be patient and nice..and telling them to go to sleep. I am now at the point that I am angry and tired! I start yelling and tell them... " GO sleep in your own rooms! " ( in which they should be doing anyway) Braxton says to me..Mom, why do you hate me? Why do you not want me to sleep in here and snuggle with you? I thought to myself..Why would he ever think that I hate him? Broke my heart!!! I then started to cry and told them both that I will be calm and keep my cool. Braxton said yes, I think that you need to learn to control your anger like I do! Ha..I huged them both and told them how much that I love them! Made me stop and think what it does to them when you lose my patience...I never ever want them to feel that way again!